Whirlwind on Floor, going Full Throtle

So...it's been a week since I've left my home. It's been a little stressful, but I love it. I spent the weekend at the beach relaxing and chilling, and just taking a moment to take in everything I have seen in the past week.
My first day on the floor, was quite stressful...that's just putting it lightly to be honest. I think I went full throttle that day, I got to experience a little of everything. From, new IV pumps, new monitors, taking care of a Insulin patient when my code doesn't work for the blood sugar monitor, admitting a trauma (which really threw me for a loop), death, their MAK system wouldn't let me admirer meds, and starting new iVs on every patient on the floor at one point in the day. I needed a little beach after that day! I relaxed and had fun, played putt putt, skip-Bo, soaked all the sun in the sky up, and rested!!!
While I laid on the beach Saturday, I began to think about my experiences from Thursday at work. I realized I took all the information possible in and went with it. I have had my share of CPR usage, but quickly realized death was one thing I have never been so close to on the Peds floor. It happens everyday I realize that, but it took me off my feet being my first experience and seeing it first hand. It opened my eyes, made me cry, and think. I consulted a friend after my day, due to the stress I was feeling, as she too said, " it never gets easier". She's been a nurse for 14 years so I'm sure she has had her share of seeing them and being involved. Me not so much, honestly. God places us each here on the earth for a reason, while our days are numbered and we never know when or where, he's right along your side to help you through stressful times and situations.
It made me go back to a few days ago to the verse I posted here on my blog about concentrating on the 'unseen vs. seen' that verse has been engrained in my head. The unseen is eternal, while the seen is temporary. We are temporary here on earth for our Lord He has each of his children here for a reason. To use us each as a source of encouragement and solider for Him in His army.
My devotion tonight was touching with another verse:
Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that He may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:6-7
Great verse and I give Him, everything from my experiences. He knew what he was doing on my first day on the floor. All the anxiety I had, I had to put my faith in Him, and that he would bring me through it. You know what, he did. He made me so much calmer about my first 'real' death experience. How hard it could have been, but with him by my side he took all the anxiety I had away. How much of a blessing. For so long I struggled with anxiety and depression, my God saw me through the whole experience. He allowed me to go off my medication, and now that I have all my faith in Him, he handles my anxiety in a completely different way, than I ever thought could occur.
Thank you Lord so much for your undying love for me. I am thankful I am a child of yours. As I go forward this week my prayer to God is to, look and see what he is constantly doing and changing in my life, and that I will remain by his side and continue to love him.
Always,
:ema:

This is a picture I took on the beach this weekend: I pondered and prayed as I laid on the quiet beach, and thought, my how awesome is He. Enjoy.

Official at Cape Fear!

So, I have been so wrapped up in getting in this new position it's been a few day! I have had such an awesome time orienting at Cape Fear!! I have made some awesome friends already! As you all know I'm still I'm Peds which is great and there is another girl from my agency who is doing Peds too!!! And guess what her name is Emily! Confusing right, we've been named E squared! I work days though and she works nights! I'm so excited, I work my first actual shift on Thursday! Exciting! Emily and I have both went up to the unit twice just do we could figure out where the heck we were gonna be going! The hospital is a little confusing, because there are Norths, Souths, East, and West! Hahaha it's a pretty confusing place. It's more like a children's floor, rather than a children's hospital, which is what I came from.
I was sent this verse by a friend yesterday and it has been on my heart since I read it, I'll share it with you all.

"For I know the plans I have for yo," says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and hope. Jeremiah 29:11

God knows exactally what he is doing in my life. The doors he closed were blessing and the one he opened has been a wonderful blessing. Mollie is doing well, we are gonna head to the beach this weekend, catch some rays and relax for a while! After this week I would say its much needed. Sitting in a room with computer training has been a little challenging for me, especially since the charting and medication administration is the same as my last place! So hopefully, I will acclimate alright! Here's one of my favorite shots from this week, and the next picture is a family of geese that live in my little pond in my community!! Enjoy.


Always,
:ema:

Concentrating on the Unseen.

Last night I was reading my devotional book and this verse has stuck with me since reading. I'll share it with you all.

So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. 2 Corinthians 4:18

This hit me because, for so long I have always concentrated on the seen and what is around, and I shouldn't have been because like God says, the seen is temporary. Completely, temporary. My thoughts as I go on throughout my journey are to make a promise to God to concentrate on the 'unseen' and know my love for Him is eternal, and His love for me is eternal. He loves me no matter what. He sees me through and knows my every move before I make it! I love my God. So many times I have walked around without Him by my side, but now my focus is on Him completely. It is because of Him that I have everything. There are times I may not understand what is going on, but He always knows. No matter what. Tomorrow, as I start my first travel position, pray that I remember this verse continually in my heart and make this promise to God daily that I will always focus on the unseen, because the seen is only temporary. He showed me his promise yesterday and I know I used this in my last post! But God is way to awesome to not use it again.


Always,
:ema:

'Bittersweet Goodbyes'

I spent the last week while I was in South Carolina saying my 'goodbyes'. I have some amazing friends lets just say that! It includes everyone I know, even if I didn't get to see you or talk to you before I left. I'll start with this past Sunday and move forward!

This is my good friend Ruth! She is an amazing source of inspiration! She makes me smile! We met at Ruby Tuesdays and had a good time! Laughed, cried, exchanged gifts, and shared some good stories! We had fun! I will always have a special place in my heart for her. She always can make you smile, and was not far behind if you ever needed help! Ruth, if your reading this Thank You for all your support during my time at GHS! You mean so much to me!!!

I lived in a small apartment complex in Easley and while I was there I went through so much. I was stressed with a pending divorce and awful relationship,. As I moved into my new place in Easley I made great friends with my neighbor! Actually, she lived under me! But, however she was completely amazing so I had to take her to dinner! We had a good ole' time at Cracker Barrel! Good laughs, great convos, and listening to Slick Rick on the way home! Karen I love you girl, and appreciate your shoulder and ear during my time in good ole 210-12. Memories made and will never be forgotten!

While I was at GHS I met my best friend! Perfect match! Thru thick and thin she was always there and she accepted me no matter what. We went to lunch and I gave her, her Christmas/birthday/leaving/I love you gift. So hard to tell her goodbye. Jacy out of site does not mean out of mind to me! I love you and thank you for everything you have ever done for me. You have always made me smile, when I was down! And always know how to make a girl laugh. You and your sweet girls mean so much to me!! You have all impacted my life! No matter what 210-12, pools still open ;). It will only be missing me :( so it will not be the same.

I don't have a picture for this one but, as you can imagine how hard it was to say goodbye to my family. They have stuck by my side through everything. My mom and dad are no longer 'just down the road' I'm a 4.5 hours from them. I cry hard as I type this because I miss them so much already. Today my mom and dad did something so large, they brought the rest of my things, and had to turn around and leave right after! That right there is love. So many times in my life I feel like I have been a disappointment to them, but no matter what they love me! Mom and dad thank you so much. I miss you more than you ever know. Skyping and FaceTime is a must in this world now!
Olivia, my sister. Thank you for all your help of getting things together at my old place and packed. You helped out a lot and those 3 boxes in your storage helped too, cause my space is jammed packed!!! I never realized how much I had. I love you.
My other family...grandma, grandpa, Aunt Lee, Uncle Steve, and Cass. I love you guys. When I come into town I want to see your faces! Because, I know you too support and love me so much and I love you that much more!!!
Mollie, geez. I know your a dog but you are my heart and soul. I love every piece of you and would step in front of a car for you. So happy you are able to go along on this journey with me. I know your nerves are all tore up! But remember moms gotta make a living! Haha! I took her to the groomer and we said goodbye! She got her 'summer cut' and I hope she enjoys it! Chuck always does and amazing job and she loves him so we spent Wednesday getting our new do!! I love you Mollieana, sorry for ever making you feel harmed or not loved! You know I love you with all my heart and soul!

Well this is it for this session. I'm a crying mess right now...because I miss my friends and family. I have to remember to be strong and courageous and know my God is right beside me every step of the way. He showed me that today. I cried when I saw this
My God is awesome!!!!

Always,
:ema:

We Made It!!

So we made it!!!! Geezz, it's so freaking nice! I love it! My company hooked me up!!! So living the city life now! Mollie is too, However, slightly confused! We left this morning about 545am blahhh,but took no time to make it to ole' Fayettenam' as I have heard this town referenced too! It's been pretty much non stop since I arrived. I left a day early to get my PALS recertification done...so instantly when we got here I had to leave and take care of that! So now I'm laying around relaxing, Mollie's been trying to figure out where we are. Just gonna be short and sweet I have to get this placed organized, my parents are going to come up today and bring the rest of my items! I can't wait!! Mollie needs her toys and I need my hair straightener! Always :ema:

"Goodbye South Carolina"

So as I said once before Mollie and I went off on Monday and had our little 'annual' photo shoot. I'm so in love Ruth did an amazing job. Just as always, she never lets me down. Here some of the shots we captured on Monday. I hope you all enjoy them as much as I do. My little Mollie has my whole heart, she is exactly like a child to me :)

Absolute perfection!! "Remember, a firm grip, a safe trip!!!!" That's my motto as I travel tomorrow!

Peaceful and perfect as always. :) My Mollieana.

What a model. She is absolutely perfect in every way. SMILING so BIG. She loves her momma!!

Beautiful! The love of my life :) She has captured my whole heart.

We are an absolutely perfect pair! Nothing makes me more happy than my baby girl.

I should have put my serious face on.



We are a smiling pair :) I think she may have been a little thirsty. Whatcha think :)



I am speechless.

Always, have to steal my kisses from you. Sweet love. Can't get any better than this.

Foot prints of love will remain with me where ever we are Mollie. I love you.

So glad she could capture this, I got this about a year ago. And yes, these are actually my little ones paws to a freaking tee! She is with me where ever I go.

 But, MOM I know I am beautiful, would you please STOP IT!!!

Over the bridge, and through the woods off to Fayetteville, NC we go!

Goodbye, South Carolina. Mollie and I will catch ya on the flip side.

I hope you enjoy these photos as much as I do. Just thought I would share a few of my favorites with you all before we left the great ole' state. Keep us in your prayers as always. We will be leaving out now on Friday morning at 6AM. Thank you all for all the love support and comments you have given me over the last few days as I have taken on this journey. I am so excited to see what MY GOD has planed.

Lastly, BIG THANKS TO THE WONDERFUL RUTH RUSSELL WHO TOOK THESE FAB PHOTOS!!!

Always

    :ema: